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awww... just gimme a minute

one minute before exam!


one minute before you wake up
(man! jst want to slam it, don't ya!)

one minute before the storm!



wonder, fear and longing..one minute before proposal!

a minute before pulling the trigger!




one minute to think before declaring war



one last minute to reconsider

if you let the moment pass, would it be any different?

Gypsy Days.

thy shall walk
in silence and shade and sun and storm
drift along, run along
thou shall meet the truth
and pure and you in every way
fall in, drench in
Ah! for now embrace gypsy days.

slip my god-damn feet into 'em
run, run,run
never lookin' back
and never stopping enuf
to remember, to want, to think and feel
for i don't belong here, nor there

Which chapter you in?

So like, how do you know when it is that a new chapter has unfolded in your life? I mean when you are turning the pages of the metaphorical book of life, how do you know which page has to be marked with a bold typeface proclaiming the chapter number? And it's not like every experience can be penned down in a new chapter...as I can understand, our life plays out itself at regular intervals.. we have more or less the same range of emotions and same kind of experiences with little variations..circumstances change, people change, the places change but the depth of emotions and their effect on us is what changes. Moreover, it could be a sub-plot or a link in the chain of events that started long ago. And, even as you are in the midst of an unfinished chapter, some one some where might involve you in their plans and a whole new (parallel) chapter might get started unbestknown to you!! (and when you are the one actually involved in those plans, it might be reduced to a mere anecdote or a subplot in your book)... I mean, you only know when you look back in time and say.."i guess it was that moment that changed the things to come..." and obviously so, because though its your life being played out here and you get to be the centre of it all, more often than not, the locus of control is entirely external... So, if we cannot exactly tell which chapter the present is going to end up in, I guess we should all know it at a later stage thus ending up a chapter short at the end of time ;) better still, if you can have someone who can end up that last chapter :P

Tagged: Because *Iam that* bored

Because I'm *that* bored.

Name: Usha Kiran
Nickname(s) : usshh, Mrs. Harry, champ ( :D )

Single or Taken? : Gee, Single
Sex: Female
Birthday: shhhhhhh
Blood group: O (dunno if its + or -)
Sign: Taurus
Siblings: I wish I din't have to share MY dresses
Hair color: Black
Eye color: Black + Brown
Shoe size: uh-huhh, not sure
What are you wearing right now? pure white cotton tee and sweats
Where do you live? Hyderabad.
Have You Ever:-given anyone a bath? : no-no-no
bungee jumped? : want to, not yet.
broken the law? : yea, social niceties if you will
made yourself throw-up? : nahh
gone skinny dipping? : Nope
been in the opposite sex's bathroom? : no
eaten a dog biscuit? : jeeezzz no
put your tongue on a frozen pole? : no

broken a bone? : no

played truth or dare? : Yes
been in a physical fight? : lots of 'em (over dresses I laid my sight first on and reading HP first :D )
been in a police car? : noo
been on a plane? : nah :(
been in a hot tub? : no
swam in the ocean? : no..i havnt learnt to swim dammit
fallen asleep in college? : in the first bench, every day past 4 years ;))
Cried when someone died? : yeah
Flashed someone? : no
Lied? : not lied-lied per se
Laughed so hard you fell off your chair? : yeah!
Sat by the phone all night waiting for a call? : mmmhmmm (hell and damnation!)
Saved e-mails? : in "special folders" protected by passwords
wished you were someone else? : no
wished you were a member of the opposite sex? : yeah, all the time
Been rejected? : hmph !
used someone? : no
been cheated on? : yea
Done something you regret? : just one. Hells teeth!

First Thing That Comes to Mind:-
Yellow: Bright
Blue: i want something new
Happy: book in hand
Autumn: that pretty windows wallpaper
Cow: dung :P

Have you ever had:-


chicken pox? Yes
sore throat? Yes
cold? Yea
stitches? No
bloody nose? Yea
sex? No

Do you:-

believe in love at first sight? : No
enjoy parks? : Not quite
like picnics? : Nah....picnics used to be good back in school
like school? : totally....missin skool like hell
hate anyone? : I'd be damned if i say i don't.

Who:-

is the last person that called you? : the vodafone call centre female :(
makes you laugh the most? : my friend from school (who btw calls me champ :D )
can make you feel better no matter what? : Ayn Rand
was the last person you touched? : i don't quite like this q
you hugged? : my friend keeethuuu :)
you yelled at? : mom
told you they loved you? : mom

Do You/Are You:-

like yourself? : yeahh
dye your hair? : noo
have piercings below the waist? : no
stolen anything over $50? : not even below that
like ice cream? : love it
Flavor : anything at Baskin Robins
like cold coffee? no...not even regular coffee
Smoke? ewwwwwwwww
have beer? : no
obsessive? : u bet
Compulsive? : no
Depressed? : sometimes
suicidal? : Gee, no

Random:-

Prized possession: my childhood pics
Last thing you said? : bye
What is beside you? : water bottle
Last thing you ate? : dinner
Are you right handed or lefty? Right
Favourite song: Love will tear us apart- Joy Division.
Worst thing that has happened to you this year: none, yeyyiii !!!


Time started: 10:15 pm

Time finished: 10:50 pm

mundane fundas for the bored

1. Heartily know that when the half-human is gone, it is then that the GODS arrive.
   
2. Don't look for the punch line coz there isn't one. Instead settle for it's less appreciated cousin-irony.
3. Not going into freezin cold water by degrees, dive all at once and then feel the chill.
4. If you are dead inside, we can share a double funeral.
5. Heart in the closet, dagger in the shoe and hippies on the highway.
6. You can say that again but he's just another sucker who persists in his madness so just give him a sucker punch.
   

BBT in the morning and haunted in the night. Both never cease to amuse me.

Define:
1. The meaning of meaning
2. The final "getaway"

Choose:
1. A good book with an even better cover
2. Slap over a blank stare

Ask:
1. For a meeting with The President
2. For a sugarless gum if offered just gum :D

Do:
1. Ignore/be happy for your ex
2. Write a post like this when you are bored/just out of writers block

What will you do...

What will you do when:
-You want to write a poem, but find no words to describe that emptiness or whatever it is that screams like "aaaaaaaaaaaarggggghhhh" in your mind

- You try to listen to psychadelic, heavy metal or punk or grunge or hindi remixes or old classics, but none of it-none of it!- markedly improves your mood (it is improved, while listening to the song, but the nasty feeling returns the next second)

- Your friends are too busy to message you (oh no, you shan't msg them, for the fear of being called a despo) or all you get are crappy forwards (its funny people dont grow up even after all these years of fwd'n the same msgs)

- You are outa status msgs to put up in gtalk (phew! that's quite a situation. You don't want to ping anybody for the reason mentioned above, but a notice-a-ble status msg is what makes others ping you, atleast outa curosity. Oh, wait! they must be already dead while reading the tickr on mtv)

- The only song your mind is willing to play is the "hmmmphh" that accompanies the "train of thought" (the thought of what to think (or not, watever) )

- When finally, finally, you had enough of FRIENDS, but are outa space to store Prison break or two and a half men or watever; and so continue to watch FRIENDS ( mute. you telling the dialouges. fun. try.)

- You sitting all day long stiffens your parents :P :D

- You've lost the will to yell :O

People who have bad dreams are the ones who do not listen to good music.

You gotta get through the tunnel , to the other side. I fought down my urge (which became quite an instinct, I should say) and I am on the other side of the tunnel. I won't take any more shit. No more playing the sentimental fool.

TAGGED !

I was tagged by Abhishek :


1.If your lover betrayed you,what would be your reaction ?
Ans : I wouldn't believe it.

2. If you have one dream which could come true,it would be?
Ans : Wake up one morning and find everything the way I wanted it to be ;))

3. Which one do you prefer-ice-cream or chocolate ?
Ans : Chocolate.

4. What would you do with a billion dollars ?
Ans : Duh-uh!! Invest part of it and make another couple of 'em !

5. Can you fall in love with your best friend ?
Ans : Nahh..

6. Who is more blessed-loving someone or being loved by someone ?
Ans : Well, I'd prefer the love you feel be reciprocated.

7. How long would you wait for someone you love?
Ans : Till I find the next best one :P (duh-uh!! no one's getin any younger!!)

8. If the person you like is secretly attached,what would you do?
Ans : Stop liking him.

9. If you could root for one social cause,what would it be?
Ans : Advocate Objectivism ( Hail Ayn Rand )

10. What takes you down fastest?
Ans : The fact that I have no friend who knows what it is to be me.

11. What according to you is blogger in denial?
Ans : The one who doesn't believe in what he writes.

12. What’s your fear ?
Ans : My worst fears have already come true. There's nothing more I fear, nothing else can ever make me go like... "awwwww...dat hurts!"

13. Your opinion of the persons who tagged you with this.
Ans : Just known him through his blogs...he's too lavish in his praise for my posts :) :D it doesn't hurt to be praised :)

14. Would you be single & rich or married & poor ?
Ans : Single and rich.

15. What is the first thing you do when you wake up?
Ans : yawwwwwwwn..sleep for another 5 minutes before the clock screams it's 9!

16. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, whom would you pick?
Ans : "if"

17. Would you give all in a relationship ?
Ans : I've never been in one...so, dunno how stuff works...but nice to be with someone around whom you can completely be you and pour out your deepest secrets without any fear.

18. What’s eating you now ?
Ans : One feet of mine is completely numb from sitting in the same position for the last 2 hrs and thing is I'am too lazy to change the position.

19. Do you prefer being single or in a relationship?
Ans : Single.

20. Tag 6 people.

Nuh-huh...some of these questions really made me visit the battlefield in my mind, which I shut tight close. I don't want others to go through the same thing (they might not have been where I was...yet...)