Contrary to the range of emotions I go through everyday (which is just one-feeling bored), today there was a lot that happened. Yes, I can totally sit at home the whole day and yet feel so many things (funny I feel bored when Iam surrounded by people).
It's just that there is so much to "Accomplish" and so many things left undone. If I cared enough, I wouldn't even be having the time to rant all this in my blog. But I don't want to do anything at all. For a change, I want to sit back doing nothing and watch the show go on. For a change, I want to be this devil-take-the-hindmost-attitude girl. I couldn't have been more ridiculous,telling myself the things would be done even without my interference..no, no complete flight from work and responsibilities. How I got that idea, I don't know and care not..but Iam too lazy to do the work. Sorta makes me feel "godly"...god just watches the show go on. Even without me, the show must go on. Or, perhaps, for this part of god's show, Iam not given any part. Iam the "slowdown" button in the elevator--it's there and gives an illusion of doing work. Or, Iam in this party where there are so many people that your absence isn't missed.
I read 2 books today-leftover part of Eldest and M&B's " The Rake's Redemption". OH, how I love reading books. The smell of the books is invigorating-it fills me with this "lively" feeling..the disticnt smell (and especially of old books!!! wow!!!) invites me to the hidden treasure. Oh, just to grab a book and a chocolate/hot cuppa and sit in a corner...oh,place doesn't matter..just the mere thrill of reading the book . It takes me into this entirely different parallel universe. Books, for all the times-the gud, bad, dark, lonely, angry and helplessness....they are my best refuge when I can't or don't want to figure out reasons.
Was watching the tv and was peeved by the way they potray these love bugs. The heoine keeps thinking of who her love is going to be and the scene shifts to where the guy keeps thinking of his elusive lady love. Wham! some right-outa-fairy-tale scene and they meet each other and yet another story begins.... may be that's the way it happens..but its always for others. Me, have no such luck...everyone around me seems to be having them..may be, they don't read books and so are unsuspecting about it..and it happens for them..me, i keep reading books and so..its never gonna happen!!
Always been a fantasy-kick in the crotch and spit on the face. For a change, the fantasy came true. Courtsey- One (or two) of my unsuspecting friends. God has a weird sense of humour. He wanted to grant me this fanatsy of all!! ( I have the best fantasies- just a box to live in with books and dahi puri ; the box be made of cake; give me the gift of time and throw me with the box into space and wham! iam in a continuum) These fantasies hardly qualify as slefish or outrageous-they are too innocent..and yet...
Lastly, Hmpty-Dumpty din't just happen to fall; she was PUSHED. Keep watching this space for more on that!
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